In the past I’ve been a lonely, miserable person
but after joining college, I was determined to push my limits and it was really hard for me..
It involved a lot of mental wars and i went through a lot internally….
but after trying to do everything perfect, I put myself into pressure.
I calculated every move I make to be right so that people would want to know me.
but then I got tired.
tired of traveling that far from my house to college.
to always smile no matter what my mind and heart went through.
I tried to act that nothing bothered me .
days passed and my 1st semester got over.
I got a few days of holiday before starting the next semester.
the first two days i didn’t want to do anything… .
I thought a lot
lately i’ve been trying to figure out things..
not who i was or who i wanted to be..
I was trying to figure out other people.. and why they are like that…. and how do adults be ADULTs
though i couldn’t figure out how the world runs…. the more i thought the more i felt like my brain was going to give up..
i slept more and it helped …
you know… your brain tries to relieve itself from confusion through dreams…
even though they are weird dreams… you will certainly feel better….
even though i am not completely sure or feel happy…. it certainly got better.
just wanted to share my thoughts through my blog..