The memories that made us.

 

Remember.

 

Remember the better.

To recall and cherish,

The time you couldn’t stop laughing

Couldn’t stop smiling.

When your mind lighted up with happiness and love.

 

Remember the less than better

To recall and learn,

The time you couldn’t stop hurting

Couldn’t stop feeling lost.

When your mind churned with emotions and confusion.

 

If you’re turning 16 or 60,

Remember to not forget

the better and less better,

 

For  all the good and bad makes up our life,

Makes up us.

Changing our attitude and perception,

The thing we call learning and growing up.

 

At  the start or the end of the day,

That is all we have,

The memories that made us,

The memories to Remember .

 

 

ALlways love.

-Vantsy105

 

 

 

 

Should I know?

Its been too long…

117 days to be exact!! , since I last posted.

Time rockets!

As usual ‘the exciting’,  classes, assignments and tests.

Even though I am supposed to know what to do next, being in the final year of college and all, I still got nothing. Nada.

I thought I would know by this time, I had a better “plan” in my first year.

so, what am I going to do, You ask…

well, I am going to paint…

I mean, I am not going to decide now, I can keep my options open and see what comes .

Let me know, do you have/had any idea on what might interest you?

Be patient. ALLways Smile.

-Vantsy105

The questions asked to the answer known.

She sits on the couch confused, scared, anxiously scared.

She doesn’t know what to do.

She believes, yet she lacks confidence.

Yet there is a piece of confidence hanging to her, clinging to her,

She doesn’t believe.

 

She thinks to herself,

Is it her fault, that she is herself.

Is it her fault that she likes who she is.

Is it her fault that nobody understands who she is?

Is her fault that no one wants explore deep anymore?

 

As days pass by , As her years add up,

Her faith diminishes.

 

She questions herself,

why am I scared?

why do my heart feels heavy and hurt?

why do my eyes keeps getting emotional when I want to be strong?

Why do I keep doubting myself instead of destroying that doubt?

Why am not building myself up but tearing apart?

 

she asks herself,

Am I really what people see me as?

 

Is it really their fault or mine?

she asks.

 

I do have the answer,

I do know why I feel the way I feel,

Yet its hard to block it out,

Their thoughts and mine.

 

With the questions and answers known,

She carries on.

 

-vantsy105

 

 

I turn a day and a year older.

Today I turn a day and a year older..

19.. I could’ve done a lot in 19 years. Well I did a lot,We all did.

Like learning to take the first step, like learning to talk your first word.

To handling our environment, to be able to strengthen our head and heart.

we have a long..long..long way to go.

Current mood status:

What?!

Current mind state:

Love confidence. Confidence is love.

-Vantsy105

2 months, is it?

Hello people!

 

So, here I am lying down, scrolling through Instagram,hot air blowing on my face. I stumbled upon a site, which led me to a blog post and then there I saw that Its been 2 months since I last updated. 

And here’s why,

I had my college timing extended with only Sunday being a holiday and a dozen of assignments and projects to submit in not more than 2 weeks. Then, with no delay I finished my semester exam, which seemed to never end and where I found myself for the first time, feeling  very lazy about the writing part of the exams. But also, the usual procrastinator in me grew stronger almost- just almost engulfing fully, as I studied/ scanned through the night before (10:30pm- 12:00) and on the way to my college (if I get a place to sit).

Now, I am in my home town, trying not to melt. It is very hot people. To be precise, it is always above 102•F. And also I don’t have much of a Internet connection or a big screen the work on. 

I am thinking about doing some dIYs ( Do-It-Yourself) and a bunch of covers. 

Let me be productive and also have fun this summer, as I may be doing something next summer. You ask why? Because it’s my final year of this course( but I still feel like I am 9 years old)

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Overcoming procrastination (college version).

hi world!

what have I been doing you ask?

well, my internal exams which was a week long got over last week and now I am putting together 2 projects to submit on Monday. And I have another two project to submit the next Monday and then some more tests and again a project.

Honestly, I feel a bit overwhelmed . But what am i doing – procrastinating.

I am starting to understand why I do this, the procrastination .

Too much work. So don’t start, My brain says.

Now as my brain understands why my brain does this, I can tell myself to just start.

JUST START!!

(remember the friends series where chandler and Monica weds. Similar to that)

Don’t think about it. Just start. Small things.

Small thing+small thing+….. = Finished product.

That seems simple enough right?

lets start!

vantsy105

 

 

JAN 4th – status

My college starts tomorrow after the holidays… which went by in a blink.

I have a lot.. I mean a LOT of work, projects and assignments to complete.

…Oh….

Now I am sharing this, instead of starting anything.

Okay.. let me start with statistics then…

Have a great day!!

-VANTSY105